Well...Grandpa juz passed away and now i am at the wake...he just leave the family suddenly and everyone of us cannot really react to this incident...imagine..he was fine the day before..and the next day..he got a heart attack..jus like tat..he left us..I was really shocked on this..i dunno how to react..and seeing my dad cried...i really feel hurt..my dad dun usually cries as he is always strong..but then..he break his tears..calling Grandpa "Pa, we are going back" while bring my Grandpa's body from the montuary to the void deck..

Although i am not so close to Grandpa..the thought of losing him really makes me sad..he is the only elderly in the family..and now..he is gone..i remember i will always see him hanging ard in my uncles' office..helping my uncle business..and i used to hang ard in my dad's office (my uncles' office and my dad's office are juz beside each other)..i used to tok to him abt my life oso..he was the one who would start the reunion dinner every year..and i will always remember giving my oranges to him every cny..he is always cheerful and fun..and now...he is no longer here.

He got things that he have not settled yet...many things tat he will want to do..but yet..he does not have the chances now..

Life is fragile..i knew that when Ler left us..but slowly..ppl tend to forget about this fact...now..i got reminded once again..by my ah gong..Hope ah gong will be fine..where ever he is..gonna missed him..definitely...

Signing off with regrets~~

well...i guess when i go jobless..my world is juz getting really bad...my parents' attribute to me are like shit..they always think tat i am a child..dunno how to think..my dad will think tat i am juz loofing ard..my mum will think tat i am juz a useless piece of crap who dun think abt his future..i mean come on..i am juz jobless for abt 2 weeks..i din really ask money from them..and seriously...i need to learn C++ myself in order to do an assignment..my mum even says that she was afraid to tok to me becoz everytime when she nag at me..my face turns bad..but hey...in the first place..does she ever know wat is she toking..everything so negative abt her son man..thinks like i got no plans..i am so lazy...i am so nua and so on..then..i was thinking..so the time when i was at my ex company..when i always OT like mad..dun get to see her often..she dun mind that kind of life? when she dun get to see her son at all..then it sets me thinking again...am i a burden to them..my mum always say she shldn't have give birth to me..though tat comment might sounds nth to u all..to me..i feel the hurt there..to them..i am juz a burden..to them..i am juz someone who add on more shit to them..then seriously..i am not..at all...

my mum says she spoils me..maybe i am...i dunno...sometimes..i dun even feel that i am spoiled...i do ask them for stuffs..but only on occasions..not all the time..mostly birthdays..tat's all..i dun really ask them for extra cash...i even volunteer to go on sch loan coz i dun wan to touch their assets..she did mention to sell the hse but i told her not to do so..

sometimes..i know tat i muz cherish my parents more...when they are still ard...but then..if ur parents are so negative abt u...i dunno wat to do..i guess i muz work my ass out..maybe until one day i totally cannot take it and going down..then..they will realise tat i am an adult..lol..ok stupid thinking..i know i shall work hard..i shall go for the best..all i need is juz support..not all the negative stuffs that bring me down...

kinda low...but i will try to keep my spirits up..i will...i muz show them i am not a crap...


Signing off~~

Hahaha, I guess everytime i come back to my blog..i need to get rid all the cobwebs and dust..haha...o well in case u all dunno...jason peh is still alive and kicking..or maybe not...due to my job i guess....

Well, simple update here. Currently working at Accenture now...big company man..but well..i work like mad too..hahaha~ get into this super big project which i dun think i can tell ba..dunno la..anyway..this project is really big coz it involves hell lot of systems..and man...it's nv easy to juz test them all..hahah..Great experience i muz say..i learn some stuffs inside...IT-related and non-IT related...o ya..have been in the company for like 4month plus going to 5 months soon..and tat's explains y i din blog during this period..

A lot of my frens were saying "y u wan to torture urself? plus u are working for so many hours per week (9.30am to abt 11pm on weekdays plus saturday from 10am to 5pm) with this kind of pay?" I guess maybe to u all, i am juz a mad man..but i dunno leh..to me..at least i can bring home some money every month..so i tot that i am lucky to have a job at least..but man...this job really testing my limits..coz there are periods when i can be super depressed..demoralised..and juz simply unhappy..and somehow..this job has juz changed my life totally..i used to exercise whenever i can during weekdays..but now i can't..which explains y i am growing fatter..lol~ and also..i tend to forget stuffs nowadays..so bad that even all stuffs abt my friends i also can forget..which makes me look like mei you xin and oso i am not aware of things happening ard my frenz...makes me look like someone who dun bother abt frenz...dunno la...but i tried my best to go for most of the outings if i can..so if anyone of u are read this..i am sorry that i am so busy with my work..Man..i missed my saturaday soccer too..now lesser chance to play alrdy..with my sec sch mates and poly mates..sigh...

Well..my contract is ending at 5th july but my boss wanna extend me to end of year..of coz i will still go for my studies..but muz confirm with my boss if i can leave early during sch days..my mum was saying to go for the extension..but my heart keeps telling me not to do so..then my mum said," u are no longer a teenage..working is like tat..lesser free time to do watever u wan..." I was like sigh..and now..to think that i am gonna study and work at the same time...i dunno if i can cope or not..dun wanna waste money on sch fees alrdy..sigh..

anyway, sorry for this gloomy post..hahaha..dun mean to make u all sian la..but hey...i still wanna thanks my frenz for all the outings they have organised..to me..all these outings give me to destress and oso to catch up with all of u..so dun forget me when there are outings ok? pls dun give up on me~~` hahaha..

ok la..shall blog again..take care ppl...


Signing off~~

ok before i start anything...let me do something first...

*breathe in hard...and BLOW!!!*

ok done~ all the dust and cobwebs are gone!! hehe...alright...being really lazy here to blog..even i have been slacking this whole month, lol~ok so let me blog about what i am doing this whole month...starting off...i slack at home...
Catching the show "F.r.i.e.n.d.s"..thanks to Nur whom i got from...seriously i love the show a lot and is like 10 seasons!! hahaha~ but really..as i was watching the show...sometimes, i was thinking if there were really true frenships ard when we reach like 25-27? i mean frenz who always chill out and have fun with you..regular meet ups and sharing of their problems around..meeting up for sports games...a lot of other things went through my mind..i know it's just a show but still, thinking maybe it will happen in our lives i guess..ok guys..i am not implying anything here..u guys are great friends to me so this is just my thoughts in mind :)

ok besides watching the show...went out with my frenz and celebrating Xmas~

13th was at Agu's hse with the Gang haha~ well..we have a nice dinner and also present exchange and guess wat i got? face mask!! hahaha...ok i don't really used them but well, can give my mum to use? Had some fun with Agu's Wii and well..keep losing to that peggy la...make me look like a loser sia...sigh~ overall, we really have a lot of fun and laughter with the playset..hehe~ then we go watch Bolt and the movie was really funny...esp the hamster lol!! after that, me, JY, cyndy, reagan and Agu went back to Agu's hse to play Mahjong~ well..not that bad...din really lose much though..lucky~~

19th-21th was ICP-broadband multimedia Chalet cum Xmas celebration~~ well..first, happy to have a fun committee and be part of it too...the aim for this gathering is just to have lots and lots of fun, hehe~ so start off at 19th, me and JS check in the room and then we start cleaning the area..and after, we wait for Hao hao, zell and gerard to come to the chalet and off we go to Downtown east to catch "Ip Man"..ok abt this show...is not "I.P. Man" lol!! coz a lot of my frenz are pronoucing that way (so am i =X) but then is not~ anyway...the show rocks man..love the way the main actor fights..super cool !! after that we went to subway and had our dinner..and gerard intro me a new combi of sauce : sweet onion + mayonnise...is nice la~!! hahaha...then we return to the chalet and slack a bit..then we play dai dee with vodka~ wooot! drink and drink and drink...end up me and gerard drank the most and before we slept...we really tok a lot of cock la...hahaha! but it was really fun~~ 20th..we went to TP and play soccer...so 5 guys with hangover playing~ lol...quite bad sia...so tired mentally and physically..but not bad..sweat a bit and have some fun too..then back to chalet...just slp only...lol! and at abt 4.30..i left to meet karen for pat's concert..and thanks to hao hao!! i reached woodlands super early la! hahaha~ then after that meet up with karen and off we go for the concert..well the concert was nice and interesting..too bad u guys didn't manage to see how hot pat was in one of her performance la~~ really surprise me sia~ way to go pat~ after that..tried to meet up with pat and take photos before we left..then send karen back home before i head back to the chalet again...reached liao and WOW..so many ppl came! then chat ard and got present exchange~ this time..got present from Jason Bay!! hahaha~ the brothers eh~~ and i gave mine to gerard...haha~ then at nite..some of us stayed over and we tok cock until 5...then in the morning to afternoon..we got tou poh session..can see from my facebook lol~~ and that marks the end of the chalet! nice job guys~ ^_^

24th meeting De and gangs at some grand restaurant for buffet and gift exchange~ and i was late, together with joe and gary...then we were not really sure how to go so end up...we got there by asking ard and with a little bit of luck too..the buffet was exp but nice sia...just keep ordering and ordering..then comes the present exchange part..gave my present to emeline..a massager..hope she like it..and i got my present from my sengkang brother Gary..aroma thingy de..lol!  after which..having some photo taking session before we left the restaurant and bernice give the north-east ppl a lift back home~ counting down in her car sia...lol~ reached home and the guys were celebrating each other xmas liao..

Starting to join Keong and Co. for soccer at AMK..well..still trying to get used to playing with them and man..got injuries alrdy..hope it is not so bad..still training for my goalkeeper position although i really wish i can move forward to other position..but well...still quite bad in other position la..and well..my goalkeeper skill still sucks as usual..lol~

Also been going for jogs but well..still gain some weight..guess festive seasons i always eat and eat and eat! hahaha~ dun care la...muz be happy man! woot~

Then is the countdown day which happened juz now~ guess i will continue later..together with the recap of 2008...need to slp liao...soccer later man~ so ciao ppl! happy 2009!!

Signing off~

 hahaha, now u can see how frequent i blog sia...think becoz nowadays my life a bit sian liao...really nth to blog abt too...or maybe is juz me la...hahaha~ anyway...decided to post one entry to show my existence lol~~

Well, working has been reallly busy for me...always OT nowadays...until is super sian oso...then nowadays so lesser exercise..think my fitness is dropping like crazy liao...die!! plus nowadays keep raining...hard for me to jog oso...maybe muz try morning jog...which i think is very impossible...lol~~ see how ba...

oh ya..been watching this drama call "Hot Shot", I bet that some of u alrdy know abt it le...hahaha~



Quite a nice and funny show man...bballl somemore..different from MVP Qing Ren...coz this one is more kua zhang...can fly here and there...but still..i tot it is a nice show..thanks to my colleague who introduces this to me...


o ya...went to IT show recently and get myself a portable hard disk. Wan to get one to store some of my files so next time i really can reformat peacefully..


got the skin for free and i tot looks nice sia...hahaha~


then these few weeks, nth to do...slack with keong to watch soccer...and i think he is juz suay la...din really win at all sia...as for my bowling session..getting lesser and lesser liao...i remember the last time i bowl is with ah lai they all...at east coast park...which is like 3 weeks? no idea...coz kakis all now busy...then no enough ppl to play too...sian...

ok la...shall stop here le...last picture of the day~ smiling apple~




Logging off~~

Hahaha...i am so sorry tat i din update for so long....even since i ORD i think...guess i am really lazy to update stuffs liao...and perhaps really nth much to say oso...but hey...i am not closing the blog ok?  hehe...ok...let me start my long updates...

It goes way back when i am still in army...hahaha~ Well, the day i ORD...really makes me think a lot of things sia...is like from a 19 year old boy...entering the army as a recruit who knows nut...then go to OCS as a cadet and going thru tough training...until then...i was commissioned as newbie officer...going to my unit and then...i become a senior PC till the day arrived...i really meet a lot fo frenz in these 2 years.. gd and bad...and i also learnt a lot of things from them..i remembered on that day...i a bit emo oso...is like last time see my platoon ppl...my coolest PS Beng Kiat and Daniel...my bed buddy guo zong...my chill out kakis wei an, kelvin and xing hong...and my great buddy wilfred...thanks to them...i am able to go thru the tough times in my second year of my army life...really missed my platoon a lot...but then after i left..heard tat now is a bit haywire...haha...a bit disappointed...but well...guess life really goes on...

So after i ORD..start finding jobs le..kanna stressed by my frenz sia..coz all after ORD starting working liao le...and oso no work means no income sia...really depressing...then been really careful on my spending of money...but i really enjoy staying at home coz really relaxing and i can do wat i wan to...but job search is not easy too...unless u really "chin chai" on wat jobs u wan...hahha~ search for 1 week liao..the 2nd week i start to go interview....and man...was really nervous la...coz my first job....is GV as u all know...and the interview was so casual la...went to my first interview...turns out ok la...although i admit i super nervous...then somemore pretty gal..i shy loh...lol!!! kk..joking...anyway...after the first one..i then feel a bit more relax...and went for my second one (i had 2 interviews on the same day btw). The second interview was not bad...coz the interviewer quite friendly oso la...and my third interview was a bit adhoc la...and i almost din go for the interview loh...coz really sian sia..so last min...but guess wat...ended up...i choose to go for the third company...haha~ ironic rite? hehe~

So after which...i got into this company...NCS...haha~ near SSDC there only...when in there the first day and guess wat...saw my OCS fren there sia~ hahha~ really happy...then slowly...meet new frenz there and soon we are a gang...worked as a temp SQL tester...doing testing and admin stuffs...but well...like the ppl there...really fun at times...but well...nth is perfect...still got some weird ppl and bad ppl ard...oh well..dun bother~ but sian la...almost of my frenz going to leave le....next time office will be not tat fun liao...saded...

ok then...so far...this is how my life is...nowadays i oso try go jogging...muz keep doing it liao...if not...fat faster...then oso at nite...play some games...maybe post some screenshots of the games? a bit lazy to edit oso...but well...need to start from somewhere too...hahaha~ of coz i got many outings and fun with my dearest frenz la...juz tat too many liao...dunno where to start with...will tried to post more pics...hahhaa~~

okok...done le...FINALLY!!! hahaha~ take care my frenz...will update again~


Logging off~~

Yo, back for some updates recently...

Been watching some good movies..."What happens in Vegas" and "Made of Honor"...these 2 movies to me are very funny and touching...had a really gd laugh after watching both the movies...think u guys shld go and watch them...watched "speed racer" too...only enjoyed the racing part though coz the storyline really really cui...haha~ like cartoon la...but after all..this movie is from a japanese cartoon so cannot blame...then oso "Accuracy of Death"...if u r Jin Chan Wu's fan...go catch it coz i personnally felt he still looks charming after so many years man...hahaha~ think gals will still fall for him sia...

Well...over at work...going to finish my 2 years soon and been looking through some jobs...the thought of signing on is always there...but man...my unit is the biggest of y i din do it...haha~ but well..gonna bid farewell to my platoon...a bit she bu de...coz been with them for a year le...see them grow up from a stupid trainee to a senior operator...haha~ sound like parents sia...but after all...got feelings liao la...will oso missed my dear PS sgt BK...ahaha~ he is MAN! hahaha~ last but not least...my buddy PC Wilfred who has been with me when the platoon is in shit times and fun times...muz thanks to his shielding coz if not..i will get bully by the upper managerment some times...but well...maybe i will do a ORD msg when the time comes...coz probably that is when the feeling is stronger...hahaha~

well...for my life...been going out at time...watching movie...play some bowling and o ya! just "beautify" my "wife" recently...takes me $1200 to do it...anyway...is my com la..hahhaa~ muz thanks to my cousin who help me once again to get the parts and build them together...my cpu...wif new monitor...new keyboard and mouse...all black sia..looks more stylish liao...haha~ but well..this month need to save a lot more liao...coz i am broke somehow...haha~ pay in...pay out...lol~

ok then...think shall update again next time!


Signing off~~

hahaha...here am i, back to blow some dust and cobwebs away...well..first of all...thanks to my laziness...i hardly blog nowadays...haha~ or maybe becoz my life nowadays is getting tone down liao..so tat's y i din really blog..but one thing for sure...i am really glad that previous when i make a entry recent..seems like my blog still got ppl visit sia..tot they all will abandon my blog coz everytime when u come in...first thing u will see is STILL my botak HEAD!! hahah~ so...wan to thanks u ppl who still come my site and for u all...i shall do an entry before i book in later...wahahaha~

hmmm...well as for my work life now...waiting to ORD before going to work...then nowadays, i not tat enthu in doing my work liao..maybe becoz the ORD mood is there...and a bit gif up on my guyz le...was thinking maybe becoz i recent wasn't ard..so they tot nowadays can do a lot of illegal things liao...coz i will haunt them more before i ORD...wahahaha!! Give them a one time gd one...DIE!!!!

Then during on weekends...most of the time i will go bowling...and well...can say bowling really train ur endurance physically and mentally...but quite fun la...hahaha~ and my highest score now is 172 if i am not wrong...i know is not very high la...but still practising...hehehe~ other than bowling...well..will be watching movies oso la..though the prices keep going up (anyway...been watching at cathay most of the time =P), still i will watch la...then oso developing a habit of watching alone...i know i know...u will now think "siao ar jason!" or "wah..y nv jio me"....hahaha~ my ans to u all is tat well...we love different kinds of movies...and to me...horror movies are not my cup of tea...while some ppl think comedies are lame and waste of money...or even romance comedies are so girlish and other stuffs...maybe i am different ba...a guy who dun watch horror or scary thrillers...tat's y it's hard for me to jio ppl to go...tat's y nowadays...i will try asking oso la...but if u all dun watch...i will jus go alone..hahaha~

now 21 going 22...think that my friends circle is smaller le...or maybe becoz i now a bit anti-social? i dunno sia..last time i was like so busy with outings and now...a bit quiet down liao le...hahaha~ guess ppl have new circles and commitments in their lives...and therefore it's hard to manage so everything at one time...some were saying to widen the social circle...but i tink i really take a lot of courage to do so..after all...to go and know new ppl and tok to them...dun tat simple sia...haha~ anyway....is jus my random tots la..nth much =)

okok...so this is officially my first post for 2008..after like 5 months liao...hahaha~ well blog more...wan to get back to my civilian life habits liao...hahaha~ kk..tok again ...take care all...


Signing off after so long~~

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Well...back for more updates...

Well...been really busy the week before becoz of a major event happening ard..dun think i can say it out...but well...was busy coordinating instructions around and getting adhoc orders from superiors...using my handphone like nobody business...guess it is going to explode again...lucky my fren is on tue and at least i can slack a bit..

then went on a long break...abt one week ba...coz i really need one...as next week i wun be back home on weekends...hahaha~ dun care my superior le la...so wat did i do during the week of break?

First...went to watch a couple of movies...first will be ....



the Doraemon Movie!! hahaha...the story has changed from the original ones...if u guyz still can remember...and it is a chinese show!! i was expecting japanese voices but it turns out to be a chinese show...hahaha~~ but really nice and funny...quickly go watch coz it's going off le...but actually the vcd is out le la..hahah~ $9.90 somemore...lol~

Next movie...



HERO the movie!! I must say thanks to this show...i go crunchyroll and start to watch the whole tv series of it...overall...the story ROCKS!! i mean i seldom love watching tv series...jap tv series i watched are beach boys...under one roof...GTO...Hana yori dango...think tat is all...but this one really attracts me a lot...and i watch this movie twice!!! hahaha~ call me crazy and i dun care...weee~~

Next...



Lust & Caution (R21)...my first R21 movie sia...but ok la...coz sitting like 2nd row from the front and was like look up to the screen...but quite sad for the main actress..sacifices for the sake of the country..

Lastly



the enchanted!!! well..nice and lovely movie...keong and i was thinking if only someone like the main actress will appear in each of our lives...wahaha~~ then it will be happily ever after!! ok..stop dreaming man...but the songs are really nice and interesting...a movie for couples ba...singles can watch la...but will start dreaming like me and keong loh...lol~~

So this is the movie part...went for some bowling sessions with taibi they all on fri nite and sat nite...guess tat will be our favourite game recently...lol~~ but quite funny la...everytime we go..everyone of us improved a lot...but this time ard...our champ taibi have finally got defeated in the last game on fri..i muz say the last game was really exciting...everyone of us was going all out sia...let me present the score to u all...



All 3-digits scores!! hahaha~ i am "P" and i muz say tat is my best score ever! and mr taibi "T"...so confident on frame 5 got defeated...hahaha~ but it was really fun!! everyone was so serious, wanting to beat champ taibi... and the pressure is there sia...on sat...ming de they all oso join us in playing!! hahaha~ abt 10 players in a game...quite fun sia...

besides all this activites...nothing much le...watching TV at home...walking ard AMK hub and plaza sing...

was watching this 9pm show on Chn 8...then it triggers a thinking in me...was thinking if one day i got a heavy knock on my head at some streets...and i lose my memories...how will it be? is like a reset button on ur brain and u forget almost every single thing...and during my lost of memories..who will be there to help me out? will i be able to get my memories back again? who or what will triggers back my memories again? hahaha...some thoughts during the show la...actually i got many thoughts while watching tv and movies..like for enchanted...i got this crazy thoughts sia...was thinking if the story were to happen to me..wat kind of girl will i get? Cinderella? snow white? or even mulan!? wahahaha~ okok..enough of all the childish thoughts..

Recently...i oso start to watch movie alone le...well..reasons being tat most of my frenz are not free...then maybe sometimes they not interested in watching the movie...or the timeslots of the movie is not available...so guyz...please dun think tat i dun wan to jio u all...hahhaa...but then again...now i a bit get used to watching alone..a bit scary leh...i scare i will be anti social sia next time..lol...dunno leh...last time i wasn't like tat...but now..i dun even mind watching alone...well..maybe i must keep this habit away...ppl when heard tat i go watch movie alone all think tat i so weird..coz they think watching movie alone is a bit weird...dunno la...even my mum oso sounds a bit worried...ask me y go watch alone...but well..nvm abt it la...guess sometimes really no choice ba...

ok then...shall stop here...will be blogging next week maybe?? hahaha~ take care all...



Signing off~~