Probably.. I am just too stupid for everything.. and that's why I am that lousy after all..

well..not sure wat went wrong with me...just that..i have lost my motivation to study this term..i dunno is it becoz of the workload i have from my work..or is it becoz of the sch workload that i have..i juz cannot focus and do my sch work probably...all my mind is telling me to juz relax and play...but then...there are still sch work for me to do...i am totally no longer motivated man..even though now i am owing money..even though i know the course is hard...even though i know i need this cert so badly for my future...but still...i juz lost it..totally..

guess...i need to practice some self control now..but then...hai...dunno la...perhaps to quit my current job..? maybe....


Signing off

Imagine....u are so upset to work on a Monday morning..u hope u can slp a bit later or even thought of taking MC...but well..u still tell urself todae will be a gd day..u walk to ur office..seeing ur night shift colleagues there...and then when u settle down..ur assistant team lead come over and pat on ur shoulder, "Gd luck to us for todae man."

"Y boss?" u said.

"3 ppl MC todae, you say leh" ur assistant team lead replied.

" you guys will be SPARTANS later!!" one of ur night colleagues joked

What a way to start ur monday like this...

And this is how my monday goes....

 

Signing off~~

Well.. Have some fun outings during Dec becoz after all..is sch holiday for me!! hahaha~


First will be badminton..thanks to Gary who suddenly love badminton so much..he  organized the 2 sessions..Well..long time nv play badminton liao..and now i got a new name for myself sia..see the pic below....

Mannn...i dun look like an elephant loh..sigh..haha~ but i tot this pic is really nice..thanks to long..hahah! And i broke Gary's uncle's racket twice..not the racket but the string..guess i need to get my own racket alrdy.. :P

Next..Agu's surprises home returning~ well..i know tat she is coming back..but she wanted to give the gang a surprise so she hopes tat i can actually plan a surprise dinner for her..however, was really busy on Dec so  I come out with a impromptu plan..lol~ by using me as the centre of attraction..somehow it works but then..JY was really sharp man..hahaha~ we went for supper at AMK Mac drive thru and have a lot of fun there..after all...it's been a while since we have outing with Agu..lol~

Next....


Flyers!! woohooo~ I was so excitied abt it la..coz i nv get a chance to take the ride..so no matter how tired i was after work..die die oso muz go sia..lol~~ And the experience was really fun with nice scenery at a discounted price of 10 bucks!! GD Deal man!! hahahaha~thanks to Long for the discount part sia..hehehe~



Then..we have the Hippo boat tour! though i spend a lot of money to rush down to for this tour..it turns out to be a pleasure tour man..first we go from Singapore river then slowly go all the way to Marina Bay there..see the merlion and then back to Singapore River..Though is a short trip..the scenery is nice and it's really relax after work..all this muz again..thanks to long!! haahha~ he got many lobangs sia..not bad!

Well this year for NYE, spent my time with my polymates..first i meet the ICP guys at Kelvin's hse and her mum cooked some delicious dishes for us..after dinner..we play a bit of games before i head down to join my care grp for countdown..Meet up with them at Vivocity..we shop ard Giant to get our food and drinks before heading down to Kent Ridge..suggested by Hui Qi..but man..who knows Kent Ridge is packed with so many ppl..lol~ in the end..we manage to get a shelter and we start out drinking and chatting sessions..hahaha~ not forgetting tat Hui Qi and Karen's joke of the day..inside joke though so yea..hahaha~

The next day at New Year..went to JB with Gary and gangs..first time going out with them sia..hahaha~ first stop at JB will be the Bak Ku Teh..quite nice though we agreed that the soup got a lot of MSG..lol~~ next is Movie at City Square..we watched Sherlock Hormes and i tot it's a nice movie man! though the guys keep complaining that the movie is boring..but still..Robert Downey Jr Rocks man! hahaha~ can't wait for Iron Man 2...at nite..we go for seafood feast and mann..it's simply shiok!! hahahaha..and my attempt to bring some sweets back is a Success!! lol!!

O ya..have a furious soccer session man..hahaha~ and muz take this chance to apologise to my bro Gary..for shouting at him..dunno y..till now..i still thinking y have i shouted at u..guess like wat beng and keong say...i juz lost it and go crazy...lol~ but to me..i had a game i guess? really use my old life to block the shots man..now even my butts are still hurt..lol!

2009 has ended juz like tat..how do i feel abt it? work like mad..hitting so many challenges along the way...for the 2 jobs that i have worked man!..but i know a lot of ppl.. ppl from accenture..like jimmy, liang an, wanyi and lung ting who really treat me like their small bro..really thankful for their care and concern..and oso other fun and cool frenz like shwa juan, dylan, angeline, kai yu, melissa, Jason Ong, xin yan, geneiveve and more others man..now in NCS..know frenz too like wei yao, Riki and Li hao who have left though...but they are nice ppl who taught me stuffs..oso not forgetting my shi fu Mui Hwa who is so patient with me all the time..until i damn paiseh sia..and colleagues like Chris, yili, edward and so many other ppl who helps me too..hahahah~ 2009..not a very smooth year..one of the most significant event will be ah gong..missed him somehow..though i dun see him often..hope he is fine where ever he is...

So now comes to my New Year Resolution..
1)..hopefully i can finish my course by end of this year..
2)..hopefully can have more happy and fun outings coming up as i know everyone is busy now..so yea..outings muz still go on!!! hahahaha!
3)..hopefully my parents can overcome with the financial difficulties..even by all means of striking 4D..as long as they can live happily together..i will be happy too..
4)..try to make a point to bai bai the gods in my hse whenever i come back home early..i used to have tat practice..so i trying to pick it up again..
5)..hopefully i can survive the job i am in now..though i know the chance is slim..lol~
6)..be the best GK in AMK 434..lol~ ok this one is a bit not realistic..

Lastly..GF shall not be in my list tis year!! hahahah...i am not gay though so please dun misunderstand me..every year oso wish for the bloody same thing and looked..somehow i like kanna cursed like tat sia..hahaha..so i dun wan to ask for too much this year..Single is sian and lonely..but free and easy..haha..however, if chances come..of coz i will catch la..later kanna karma sia..hehe..okok enough of my crap..

Blog will still be here so dun write me off!!! hahaha..i will be still blogging if i got the mood and time.. :P

alrite..tat's all..have a gd year ahead!!

Signing off~~

Ok, i know it's kinda late to make this post but who cares...lol~

So let's start with Xmas events. Well, meet up with my ex-NCS staffs from CPF project..Jac, Nur, Eric and Xuping...not really a xmas meet up but juz nice it falls on Dec so well..hahaha~ anyway..dinner at Soup Spoons @ Bugis Junction..the usual hangout place for us and did some catching up..after that..we went to the arcade for some fun..then nur and i decided to try out the new Gundam game..MAN!! it costs us 10 bucks to juz play tat game!! hahaha~ but well..the game is really cool man..we can communicate thru this headset and it is really like as if u are controlling the robot. After the card..still can update ur game card on ur status and ur rank..but still expensive game..hahaha..after tat..nth much..then off we go home..

Next!! meet up with Karen, Pat and Zili @ Timbre..long time din meet up alrdy man..hahah~ guess all of us are juz so busy with our stuffs and finally we manage to gather once again...Timbre is nice as usual..we have pizzas..buffalo wings and of coz..beers!! hehe..well we are adults alrdy man..time to really chill out with some real drinks...anyway..it's fun to catch up with frenz who we really seldom meet up..and we starts to look back on past...plus the wonderful band..nice~ o ya..we have our gift exchange and well..i got karen's present~~ chocolate shower foam..moisturizer and pineapple shampoo! hahaha~ not really for guys but still thank you karen for this unusual gift..though i have yet to try the chocolate shower foam yet..lol!

Next Next!! Another chill out in Timbre again!! ahhaha~ spend my time with Gary and gangs..same rules apply..pizzas..buffalo wings and BEERS!! hahaha~~this time rd, i got Long's present~ 6 Kindle Surprise~~ 6X the surprise i will get man..lol~ but well, we din really get a gd place to sit this time rd..so we ended up shifting our gathering to the Central for some Jap desserts..not bad sia...After which, we tok cock a bit before heading back home..

Next Next Next!!! Chalet @ Changi Aloha with Lai and gangs! hahahaha~ well..is kind of a mahjong chalet though coz i muz say..75% of the time we are mahjong-ing...guess this is the kind of game we play nowadays...poor Lai was really bored though...This time rd, we dun BBQ and instead, we juz ta pao all the delicious food from Changi Village man!! Nice food that makes very happy sia..Not forgetting the present exchange and well..a new style of changing whereby u got to choose ur present...or juz grab presents from other ppl who have chosen their present..so we go crazy again and finally we got our presents! I got a pair of cool earphones from yenny~ nice~ then oso we get small gifts from some of us too..thanks for the effort!
The highlight of the chalet will be the impromptu game tat Lai tot of and well, we have hell lot of fun!! check out the video on facebooks and u will know wat am i toking abt..hahaha~




Guess tat's all for Xmas gathering! hahaa~

Signing off~~

many things in mind...work...study...even family..

Well for work...guess u have yet to face the greatest challenges coming..ppl leaving the company..especially all the veterans..how to survive man..been worked with headache this week and man..i cannot imagine wat will happen next fri as the most zai colleague is leaving on thurs...fri will be like 2012 sia..haha~ my TL says that we cannot always rely on him..but then again..the team has been relying on him for 4-5 yrs le..how sia..sighhhh...

Study whilst..losing the fire to study..even exam is near..i got no fear at all..tat makes me really worried..my mind is so sian of studying..and yet exam is like tomolo le..haha~ dun worries..i did study a bit though..

now..my family..well...mum and dad have not been tat gd..reason becoz now my family is struggling financially..dad's temper is getting from worse to worst..mum's limit is breaking soon too...and me..i cannot do anything oso..all i can do..is when mum ask me for money..i juz give only..todae..mum juz missed 4D's 2nd prize..and she tells me she got no appetite for eating..i was like huh...then juz now..dad and mum will like shouting on the 4D incident..mum did discuss with me that we might need to sell our hse..i dun mind at all..coz can get extra cash oso..i dun mind all the downgrades..like house..car..watever...but then..my dad..being the old ego man..try to keep everything..and man..his business is not doing well..yet he is trying to maintain the business..incurring losses..u all might be thinking..y i din help him in the first place..coz me and my dad seriously cannot be in the same team...and dad has nv really like me to interfere with his stuffs..coz he always think that i am not capable of doing things...therefore..i feeling quite sian looking at how my dad and mum are now..i did thought of quitting sch..then fully concentrate on working..not this current job of coz...then maybe after that when i am financially more steady..then i go back sch again..i know diploma cannot bring me far..but at least i can bring money back  home too..but..i dunnno man..

anyway..dun worry...this post is not to ask for loan from u guys ar...i am still surviving well..hahaha..juz wanna release my headache a little...haha~ I guess ppl having different worries in mind..different problems and obstacles that they met..guess i muz stronger to face all this shit..

ok..something to look forward..FENG YUN II !! hahahah..after 11 years..they are back!!
           1998 - Storm Riders                         


       2009 - Storm Warriors

From mens to uncles liao..Aaron Kwok and Ekin Cheng are still so cool and handsomes man..the thriller looks nice and the graphics is really cool..so guys..let's plan for this man! haha~

ok..guess i need to go back and study a little more..before i go to slp..take care all!

Signing off~~

I need to be strong..no..i muz be strong...

Well...Grandpa juz passed away and now i am at the wake...he just leave the family suddenly and everyone of us cannot really react to this incident...imagine..he was fine the day before..and the next day..he got a heart attack..jus like tat..he left us..I was really shocked on this..i dunno how to react..and seeing my dad cried...i really feel hurt..my dad dun usually cries as he is always strong..but then..he break his tears..calling Grandpa "Pa, we are going back" while bring my Grandpa's body from the montuary to the void deck..

Although i am not so close to Grandpa..the thought of losing him really makes me sad..he is the only elderly in the family..and now..he is gone..i remember i will always see him hanging ard in my uncles' office..helping my uncle business..and i used to hang ard in my dad's office (my uncles' office and my dad's office are juz beside each other)..i used to tok to him abt my life oso..he was the one who would start the reunion dinner every year..and i will always remember giving my oranges to him every cny..he is always cheerful and fun..and now...he is no longer here.

He got things that he have not settled yet...many things tat he will want to do..but yet..he does not have the chances now..

Life is fragile..i knew that when Ler left us..but slowly..ppl tend to forget about this fact...now..i got reminded once again..by my ah gong..Hope ah gong will be fine..where ever he is..gonna missed him..definitely...

Signing off with regrets~~

well...i guess when i go jobless..my world is juz getting really bad...my parents' attribute to me are like shit..they always think tat i am a child..dunno how to think..my dad will think tat i am juz loofing ard..my mum will think tat i am juz a useless piece of crap who dun think abt his future..i mean come on..i am juz jobless for abt 2 weeks..i din really ask money from them..and seriously...i need to learn C++ myself in order to do an assignment..my mum even says that she was afraid to tok to me becoz everytime when she nag at me..my face turns bad..but hey...in the first place..does she ever know wat is she toking..everything so negative abt her son man..thinks like i got no plans..i am so lazy...i am so nua and so on..then..i was thinking..so the time when i was at my ex company..when i always OT like mad..dun get to see her often..she dun mind that kind of life? when she dun get to see her son at all..then it sets me thinking again...am i a burden to them..my mum always say she shldn't have give birth to me..though tat comment might sounds nth to u all..to me..i feel the hurt there..to them..i am juz a burden..to them..i am juz someone who add on more shit to them..then seriously..i am not..at all...

my mum says she spoils me..maybe i am...i dunno...sometimes..i dun even feel that i am spoiled...i do ask them for stuffs..but only on occasions..not all the time..mostly birthdays..tat's all..i dun really ask them for extra cash...i even volunteer to go on sch loan coz i dun wan to touch their assets..she did mention to sell the hse but i told her not to do so..

sometimes..i know tat i muz cherish my parents more...when they are still ard...but then..if ur parents are so negative abt u...i dunno wat to do..i guess i muz work my ass out..maybe until one day i totally cannot take it and going down..then..they will realise tat i am an adult..lol..ok stupid thinking..i know i shall work hard..i shall go for the best..all i need is juz support..not all the negative stuffs that bring me down...

kinda low...but i will try to keep my spirits up..i will...i muz show them i am not a crap...


Signing off~~

Hahaha, I guess everytime i come back to my blog..i need to get rid all the cobwebs and dust..haha...o well in case u all dunno...jason peh is still alive and kicking..or maybe not...due to my job i guess....

Well, simple update here. Currently working at Accenture now...big company man..but well..i work like mad too..hahaha~ get into this super big project which i dun think i can tell ba..dunno la..anyway..this project is really big coz it involves hell lot of systems..and man...it's nv easy to juz test them all..hahah..Great experience i muz say..i learn some stuffs inside...IT-related and non-IT related...o ya..have been in the company for like 4month plus going to 5 months soon..and tat's explains y i din blog during this period..

A lot of my frens were saying "y u wan to torture urself? plus u are working for so many hours per week (9.30am to abt 11pm on weekdays plus saturday from 10am to 5pm) with this kind of pay?" I guess maybe to u all, i am juz a mad man..but i dunno leh..to me..at least i can bring home some money every month..so i tot that i am lucky to have a job at least..but man...this job really testing my limits..coz there are periods when i can be super depressed..demoralised..and juz simply unhappy..and somehow..this job has juz changed my life totally..i used to exercise whenever i can during weekdays..but now i can't..which explains y i am growing fatter..lol~ and also..i tend to forget stuffs nowadays..so bad that even all stuffs abt my friends i also can forget..which makes me look like mei you xin and oso i am not aware of things happening ard my frenz...makes me look like someone who dun bother abt frenz...dunno la...but i tried my best to go for most of the outings if i can..so if anyone of u are read this..i am sorry that i am so busy with my work..Man..i missed my saturaday soccer too..now lesser chance to play alrdy..with my sec sch mates and poly mates..sigh...

Well..my contract is ending at 5th july but my boss wanna extend me to end of year..of coz i will still go for my studies..but muz confirm with my boss if i can leave early during sch days..my mum was saying to go for the extension..but my heart keeps telling me not to do so..then my mum said," u are no longer a teenage..working is like tat..lesser free time to do watever u wan..." I was like sigh..and now..to think that i am gonna study and work at the same time...i dunno if i can cope or not..dun wanna waste money on sch fees alrdy..sigh..

anyway, sorry for this gloomy post..hahaha..dun mean to make u all sian la..but hey...i still wanna thanks my frenz for all the outings they have organised..to me..all these outings give me to destress and oso to catch up with all of u..so dun forget me when there are outings ok? pls dun give up on me~~` hahaha..

ok la..shall blog again..take care ppl...


Signing off~~

ok before i start anything...let me do something first...

*breathe in hard...and BLOW!!!*

ok done~ all the dust and cobwebs are gone!! hehe...alright...being really lazy here to blog..even i have been slacking this whole month, lol~ok so let me blog about what i am doing this whole month...starting off...i slack at home...
Catching the show "F.r.i.e.n.d.s"..thanks to Nur whom i got from...seriously i love the show a lot and is like 10 seasons!! hahaha~ but really..as i was watching the show...sometimes, i was thinking if there were really true frenships ard when we reach like 25-27? i mean frenz who always chill out and have fun with you..regular meet ups and sharing of their problems around..meeting up for sports games...a lot of other things went through my mind..i know it's just a show but still, thinking maybe it will happen in our lives i guess..ok guys..i am not implying anything here..u guys are great friends to me so this is just my thoughts in mind :)

ok besides watching the show...went out with my frenz and celebrating Xmas~

13th was at Agu's hse with the Gang haha~ well..we have a nice dinner and also present exchange and guess wat i got? face mask!! hahaha...ok i don't really used them but well, can give my mum to use? Had some fun with Agu's Wii and well..keep losing to that peggy la...make me look like a loser sia...sigh~ overall, we really have a lot of fun and laughter with the playset..hehe~ then we go watch Bolt and the movie was really funny...esp the hamster lol!! after that, me, JY, cyndy, reagan and Agu went back to Agu's hse to play Mahjong~ well..not that bad...din really lose much though..lucky~~

19th-21th was ICP-broadband multimedia Chalet cum Xmas celebration~~ well..first, happy to have a fun committee and be part of it too...the aim for this gathering is just to have lots and lots of fun, hehe~ so start off at 19th, me and JS check in the room and then we start cleaning the area..and after, we wait for Hao hao, zell and gerard to come to the chalet and off we go to Downtown east to catch "Ip Man"..ok abt this show...is not "I.P. Man" lol!! coz a lot of my frenz are pronoucing that way (so am i =X) but then is not~ anyway...the show rocks man..love the way the main actor fights..super cool !! after that we went to subway and had our dinner..and gerard intro me a new combi of sauce : sweet onion + mayonnise...is nice la~!! hahaha...then we return to the chalet and slack a bit..then we play dai dee with vodka~ wooot! drink and drink and drink...end up me and gerard drank the most and before we slept...we really tok a lot of cock la...hahaha! but it was really fun~~ 20th..we went to TP and play soccer...so 5 guys with hangover playing~ lol...quite bad sia...so tired mentally and physically..but not bad..sweat a bit and have some fun too..then back to chalet...just slp only...lol! and at abt 4.30..i left to meet karen for pat's concert..and thanks to hao hao!! i reached woodlands super early la! hahaha~ then after that meet up with karen and off we go for the concert..well the concert was nice and interesting..too bad u guys didn't manage to see how hot pat was in one of her performance la~~ really surprise me sia~ way to go pat~ after that..tried to meet up with pat and take photos before we left..then send karen back home before i head back to the chalet again...reached liao and WOW..so many ppl came! then chat ard and got present exchange~ this time..got present from Jason Bay!! hahaha~ the brothers eh~~ and i gave mine to gerard...haha~ then at nite..some of us stayed over and we tok cock until 5...then in the morning to afternoon..we got tou poh session..can see from my facebook lol~~ and that marks the end of the chalet! nice job guys~ ^_^

24th meeting De and gangs at some grand restaurant for buffet and gift exchange~ and i was late, together with joe and gary...then we were not really sure how to go so end up...we got there by asking ard and with a little bit of luck too..the buffet was exp but nice sia...just keep ordering and ordering..then comes the present exchange part..gave my present to emeline..a massager..hope she like it..and i got my present from my sengkang brother Gary..aroma thingy de..lol!  after which..having some photo taking session before we left the restaurant and bernice give the north-east ppl a lift back home~ counting down in her car sia...lol~ reached home and the guys were celebrating each other xmas liao..

Starting to join Keong and Co. for soccer at AMK..well..still trying to get used to playing with them and man..got injuries alrdy..hope it is not so bad..still training for my goalkeeper position although i really wish i can move forward to other position..but well...still quite bad in other position la..and well..my goalkeeper skill still sucks as usual..lol~

Also been going for jogs but well..still gain some weight..guess festive seasons i always eat and eat and eat! hahaha~ dun care la...muz be happy man! woot~

Then is the countdown day which happened juz now~ guess i will continue later..together with the recap of 2008...need to slp liao...soccer later man~ so ciao ppl! happy 2009!!

Signing off~